Heliodites and Red Wine

I did my first Hellenic ritual in quite a long time today. This ritual was a modern ritual, not a reconstructed one, but since it was from the book that Labrys put out, I felt it came from a reputable source. (Buy this book! It is wonderful!) Plus, it was a beautifully written rite.

The one I did today, as by the solar calendar it is Sunday, was the Heliodites ritual. It consisted of an opening prayer to welcome the Gods, a prayer by Plethon, hymns to Apollo, Helios, and a chosen protector God/Goddess, followed by a closing benediction (for lack of a better word.) Each section was accompanied by an offering, Labrys recommends red wine for the offering, in addition to honey for Helios. I'm going to do more divination to find out what each of the Gods would like as an offering, but for now I am going to go with the red wine.

I did a divination with my Alphabet Oracle tiles I made after the ritual to see if my offerings were accepted and if the Gods had any guidance for me. I drew Pi, Omicron and Iota as my three tiles. These meanings are from both the Greek Alphabet Oracle website as well as the Grammantis application on the Google Play Store.

Iota says
“There is sweat {Hidrôs}; it excels more than everything.”

Omicron says
“There are no {Ou}crops to be reaped that were not sown.”

Finally, Pi says
“Completing many {Polus} contests, you will seize the crown.”

From my analysis, these three tiles together mean that I have to work harder to achieve my goals, nothing will come without that hard work, but if I put in that hard work, as Pi states, I shall achieve my goals.

I need to get a lot more red wine though, I don't drink alcohol but I went through a lot of the wine today. At least a solid glass was offered to the Theoi. I'm going to have to keep buying wine if I'm going to start following the lunar calendar.

Hail the Theoi of Hellas. Hail!

Druids....?

So, last time I wrote about religion I was discussing my exploration of Wicca. I've been going to a Wicca 101 class at my local pagan temple and while it's interesting, it's interesting from a purely academic perspective. It's not what I want to do. I felt a little sad learning that, as I thought Wicca was going to be it.

After going to Wicca 101 for a couple weeks, I was fortunate enough to attend ConVocation in Dearborn, MI, last weekend. It was amazing. I had a blast, met some wonderful people, and took some awesome classes. I also had the chance to witness a ritual to honor Athena and welcome wisdom back into the world, celebrating Her birth from the forehead of Zeus, with Hephaistos wielding the axe that broke great Zeus' head open.The Ar nDraiocht Fein (ADF) ArchDruid was the one who led the Athena ritual.

Everything that the ADF ritual did spoke to me on a deep level. I was enthralled, and the husband said I was glowing after it. It was amazing. Previously that weekend, the Senior Druid for my local grove led a class on Hellenismos, the reconstructionism of the ancient Hellenic religion, and what he said made me question whether or not I wanted to continue with my current path or go back to Hellenismos. He was very frank in laying out what Hellenismos was and what it believed, and how kharis (reciprocity) was very important, which is something I truly believe in and can get behind.

That class, coupled with the Athena rite, have decided it for me. At least for the present, I am going back to Hellenismos. I am going to work tomorrow to develop a practice that I can do at home, and instead of following a dogmatic ritual that someone else set up, I will research and write my own.... or at least, use some language from Homer and the Orphic Hymns. I will do the work this time, rather than just taking a ritual and saying it.

I need to write a series of daily prayers, one for morning and evening, as well as a blessing for meals... lots of prayers to write! I also need to structure what I'm going to do according to the ancient Hellenic month. Perhaps I'll throw it in my Witches Datebook and make note of what happens when in there. Lots to do!

Back to Druids for a moment. I think I'm going to join ADF. I went to their coffee hour this week to meet up with them and see what they are like. They're nice people! I was very nervous going in to Olga's to meet up with them and I was able to have dinner with three of the Druids, before going down the plaza for tea with more people. It was a nice evening, everyone was incredibly sweet to me. They seemed genuinely interested in what I had to say and liked my set of Greek Alphabet Oracle tiles that I made.

Greek Alphabet Oracle

Well, that's a lot of information for one night. I'm exhausted and I'm going to crash. Good evening, folks.

Farewell, 

Lyssa

Going Home?

My last serious religious topic post was about my search for a new religious path. I discussed Judaism, the possibility of blending paths with Paganism, but the more I thought on it, the more a blended path did not make sense. I then decided to write down what I believed, without any preconceptions and without trying to shoe-horn them into a path. These are just my personal beliefs, crudely shoved into words.

I believe in a divine spirit that permeates everything, beyond the comprehension of mere mortals. That divine spirit manifests itself in many forms to people across creation, with distinct masculine and feminine aspects. These divine aspects can be known as Goddess and God, but also through other deity names. 

My husband, Rune says that I definitely fit the mold for Paganism, and I’ve been reading into Wicca quite a bit lately. Everything I’m reading is making sense, a lot more sense than everything else I’ve been reading. I think I am much more a soft polytheist than a hard polytheist, despite the fact I tried to force myself to be a hard polytheist for ten years. it’s taken a lot to reconcile that belief, to accept that I am not a failure for stepping back from Hellenic Reconstructionism. It’s not me anymore, and now that I think on it, I don’t believe it ever was. It took major effort, not good effort, to do the whole Reconstructionist thing, and that was something that I tried very hard to do well. I observed the holidays, did the rituals, honored the Theoi, but it felt false. I finally admitted it, and now here I am.

I’m looking at the pile of Wicca books in front of me and remembering my first introduction to the Pagan community: Wicca: A Guide for the Solitary Practitioner by Scott Cunningham was the first book about non-Abrahamic Religions that I ever read, about fifteen years ago, and now it’s become the book I’ve gone back to for a refresher course in what I started out in the Pagan community with. I’ve also been reading the Farrar’s books The Witches’ Goddess and The Witches’ God, in addition to their Witches’ Bible.

I’m currently figuring out where I fall in things. As I move closer to this Wiccan path, it makes more and more sense. I just need to let go of my conscious brain and let my subconscious feel. Where do I feel the most at home?

It might be Wicca. We’ll have to find out. It’s time to go home.

Going somewhere?

So, as I've told most everyone who reads this blog by now, I'll put it out for the internet at large to see. I'm officially uncertain of where my spiritual path is taking me. I still believe in the oneness of nature and the universe, I still believe that the Theoi of Hellas have a place in my life, but I don't know what that is or how it will play a role in the future. The Theoi of Hellas have given me so much and have led such wonderful things into my life, but I can't force myself to stay within the bounds of a path that isn't working for me anymore.

This all started about six months ago. I was starting to do a ritual and it felt....rote, routine, like I was going through the motions. This feeling has only increased as I've tried to go deeper and deeper into a pure Hellenic Reconstructionist path. This path, I have discovered, is not for me. It hurts just saying that. I've devoted five years to following the Theoi, ten years total as a pure Pagan of some breed or another, and now I've discovered that I'm being led somewhere else.

I've been doing a lot of research and reading on Judaism. More specifically, the Reform side of Judaism and the mystical aspects that the religion contains. I got a book today in the mail, Magickal Judaism: Connecting Pagan and Jewish Practice by Jennifer Hunter. I can't recommend it or not yet, as I haven't even opened it, but the reviews were interesting. My husband, Rune (who also walks a blended path, his of Episcopalian Christianity and Celtic/Norse Paganism), and I went to a temple recently and we were overwhelmed by the sweetness and outpouring of welcome that we felt. I picked this temple out of all the ones in the area because they had, on their website's homepage, a link to the Gay Jewish Network, and I've always been a big supporter of the LGBT movement. I figured, if they were open to people of alternate sexualities, they might be open about other things. There's a temple that is supposedly even more open about an hour away, but I don't want to have to drive that far if I don't have to.

I want to find that sense of community I'm missing. I really miss having people of the same or at least similar faiths around me, those that share the awe at the oneness of the universe and the overarching power of the creator (or creatrix, who knows, gender is beyond the One.) I don't know how to reconcile my previous beliefs with where I am now, but I am definitely not 100% Pagan anymore.

It feels weird to admit that, but part of me is being drawn back to the Abrahamic deity. I was born and raised Catholic, so I have a small background in the Bible (albeit from a Catholic, not Jewish perspective), but what bugged me about Catholicism was their.... stodgyness, I guess you could say. They had a book, they followed that book, and a dude in a white dress (as I called the Papal robes as a child) told everybody what to do, and his word was the Word of God on High. I couldn't stand that relationship with the One where you were subservient to Their will, that your beliefs and needs didn't matter.

From what I've read so far about Judaism, and I could be getting this completely wrong, the Jewish view of things is more negotiating with the One, working with the One, rather than bowing down to Their all-knowing point of view. I read an anecdote that went something like this: "Two rabbis were having an argument over a piece of Torah text. After a while a gigantic hand came down from the sky and pointed at one rabbi, saying, 'He's right.' The second rabbi nodded and then said, 'Alright, it's two against one, let's find some more people to ask." That really personified my relationship with the One, I want to have that open dialogue and discussion about my place in this universe. No way in hell am I going to claim that I have the chutzpah to go toe-to-toe with the One in a debate, but having that discussion of why something should be done is invaluable to me. Too often with Christianity and Catholicism in particular, I was just told "Because this is why it is done." I want to know why I am doing the Thing.

I guess the point to this ramble is to say, Watch out, Judaism, there's a little bear on her way!

Ritual to honor Hera Telkhinia

Hello everyone, as of this first post I would like to talk about a ritual my husband and I did to honor Hera Telkhinia, Hera the Bringer of Rains as she was worshipped in Rhodes. The group Elaion runs what they call 'Practicing Apart, Together' rituals, and tomorrow one is scheduled to honor the Queen of all Gods. Unfortunately, my husband Rune was not going to be home tomorrow during the scheduled time, and I really wanted to honor the Queen of Marriage with my husband. He was also interested in participating in a Hellenic ritual, even though his path is nowhere near Hellas and their Theoi. To make things a bit simpler, I did the ritual today with Rune. 

The ritual went quite well. I split up the parts so that one person wasn't reading the entire thing and it was really nice to share some sacred time with my husband. Standing before our working altar, lighting incense and candles, making wine offerings and jointly reciting hymns.... it was a wonderful way to start the day. 

I look forward to the day that we are officially joined together in ritual before Hera Gamelia, the Goddess of Marriage. We are vaguely planning a ritual for our first mundane wedding anniversary, and having the chance to have the Queen bless our union would be wonderful.